{"id":2140,"date":"2010-04-28T09:03:22","date_gmt":"2010-04-28T13:03:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/photocardblog\/?p=2140"},"modified":"2010-04-28T09:03:22","modified_gmt":"2010-04-28T13:03:22","slug":"x-stuck","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/x-stuck\/","title":{"rendered":"44 x 44 &#8211; Stuck"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/lwr\/2113689282\/\" target=\"_blank\"><img loading=\"lazy\" src=\"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/2113689282_5bd988df34-300x300.jpg\" alt=\"click image for credit\" title=\"click image for credit\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" class=\"alignright size-medium wp-image-2141\" srcset=\"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/2113689282_5bd988df34-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/2113689282_5bd988df34-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/2113689282_5bd988df34.jpg 500w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a>I&#8217;ve been sitting here trying to start this post&#8230; I guess writing about being stuck gets you stuck.<br \/>\n<br \/>\nMy hesitation is to try and spare my readers of a pity party.  But I&#8217;m sick of feeling sick.<br \/>\n<br \/>\nAnd I&#8217;m guilty for feeling that way, because in the grand scheme of life, my health is pretty okay.  I have to remind myself of that when I&#8217;m feeling like a petulant child who can&#8217;t do what she wants when she wants.<br \/>\n<br \/>\nBut my main symptom is exhaustion and it&#8217;s like black, smoky hands dragging down my body and spirit, pushing me in this crappy cycle of pity and guilt.<br \/>\n<br \/>\nHeavy, right?  I feel like Tony Soprano&#8230;<br \/>\n<br \/>\n<strong>Tony: <\/strong> <em>Oh, Ma, you gotta stop! You gotta stop with this black poison cloud all the time! &#8216;Cause I can&#8217;t take it anymore!<\/em><br \/>\n<strong>Livia Soprano:<\/strong> <em>Oh, poor you!<\/em><br \/>\n<br \/>\nThe pity party has ended.  Thanks for coming!<\/p>\n<div class=\"linkwithin_hook\" id=\"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/x-stuck\/\"><\/div><script>\r\n<!-- \/\/LinkWithinCodeStart\r\nvar linkwithin_site_id = 1331825;\r\nvar linkwithin_div_class = \"linkwithin_hook\";\r\n\/\/LinkWithinCodeEnd -->\r\n<\/script>\r\n<script src=\"http:\/\/www.linkwithin.com\/widget.js\"><\/script>\r\n<a href=\"http:\/\/www.linkwithin.com\/\"><img src=\"http:\/\/www.linkwithin.com\/pixel.png\" alt=\"Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...\" style=\"border: 0\" \/><\/a>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;ve been sitting here trying to start this post&#8230; I guess writing about being stuck gets you stuck. My hesitation is to try and spare my readers of a pity party. But I&#8217;m sick of feeling sick. And I&#8217;m guilty for feeling that way, because in the grand scheme of life, my health is pretty [&hellip;]<\/p>\n<script>\r\n<!-- \/\/LinkWithinCodeStart\r\nvar linkwithin_site_id = 1331825;\r\nvar linkwithin_div_class = \"linkwithin_hook\";\r\n\/\/LinkWithinCodeEnd -->\r\n<\/script>\r\n<script src=\"http:\/\/www.linkwithin.com\/widget.js\"><\/script>\r\n<a href=\"http:\/\/www.linkwithin.com\/\"><img src=\"http:\/\/www.linkwithin.com\/pixel.png\" alt=\"Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...\" style=\"border: 0\" \/><\/a>","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[26,73],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2140"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2140"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2140\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2140"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2140"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/cynthomas.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2140"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}